heart attack killer

heart attack killer
swallow the
pillars
protect me
from what
is crashing down

it's okay
if the world
rains on my parade
because I don't
want to feel
a dry, dry sun
versus
a hurricane

the best version
of me
is the one
who smiles
so well
so good
so glossy
pink
red
and wet
like the first time
you kissed me first
you would
never know
I let my pain
sit on the
headrest
in your car
when you drive
me home at night
why don't you
walk me inside
why don't you
see if I'm safe
inside
why don't you
try a little harder
to be grateful
that we're alive
at the same time

you should have been okay with just sitting next to me
you should have been okay with just sitting next to me
you should have been okay
as a kid
you should have
been taught
how to
stick around
even when
you are
nowhere
to be found

you should have never
let me out
of the car

I should have never
let you drive.